Team villains except me

Chapter 485 It Really Doesn’t Matter

As Irene closed the diary, she fell down without warning.

As expected, she was caught.

Various magics, Fianna, and Dooku who was running over hurriedly holding the parts.

Irene looked at the shining lights without making any move. Silence filled the air, and no one questioned the current situation.

Irene didn't want to say anything now.

She lay in Fiana's arms, looking at her pink hair. She felt her joints throbbing. She did not have a very obvious love or hate, she had long accepted the fact.

Isana doesn’t love her.

But Isana believed her.

Irene reached out to grab the swaying vine, thinking without any emotion that her mother left her the chance to live, but also left her all the pain and hatred.

Her mother knew what would happen to her and how painful it would be for her to grow up.

Did Isana consider her?

Probably not. What Isana cares about is her achievements and the future of Luyou. She should be thankful that she is useful and valuable.

"Hey, shorty, you've finished reading those diaries, why aren't you talking?"

Ellito walked closer to her, squatted down and looked at her.

"Hurry up and say it. Once you're done crying, go to bed. You still have a lot of things to do tomorrow."

"I won't cry."

Irene's voice was muffled. She covered her eyes with the back of her hand, blocking out all the light. She began to have the urge to talk.

"…Isana didn't love me. I was out of place in the beginning. She didn't want me. But because I gave her the power to take over the court of Luyou, she kept me.

She still hated me. She didn't like children, she didn't like being a mother. But she felt that if she had a daughter, she could make her daughter a king, a legitimate king.

So she kept me. She never loved me, she didn't love anyone at all. After realizing that Banten... Brahin's brother would kill her, she planned my death. In her original plan, my death could take Banten away, and she thought it was acceptable to exchange me for Banten.

But in the end, she said, she saw my future. She felt that my life brought more value than hers. So she chose to save me.

She never loved me. From the beginning to the end, she said I was her glory... I would only be her glory if I created enough value. She thought I belonged to her, I was her thing, she controlled me, she decided my future, and she never thought I would stray - if I disappointed her, I was not her daughter.

She...she clearly knew. The ambitious Banten who had no death, the indecisive Brahin, the gradually infiltrated Luyou Palace...she only gave me a name. She gave me a name and a terrible environment. She didn't let any forces protect me or help me. She didn't intend to tell me anything, as if...as if she wanted to use such a cruel environment to test my ability.

Would I have done what she wanted? Would she never have felt sorry for me in all those desperate moments? How much I wanted her, if she had pity on me, if she had seen my future, couldn't she have shown me a little love?

Since she is a mature politician who has been using emotions to exchange for benefits, why can't she lie to me and tell Qin Ao that she loves me very much? Just write one sentence, one sentence, she is not willing to do it...

I did not choose to be king because of her. I did not. I chose to be lord, to be king, because of Sarah Boney, because of you, because of myself.”

Irene never shed a tear. Her voice gradually became hoarse, her heart was still throbbing, her body was in pain, but she would not cry.

She thought Isana was cunning. As a daughter, she had expectations of her mother, which she could not control. She would complain about her indifferent mother, but her mother sacrificed herself for her, and she could never simply and purely hate Isana. Isana also knew this, so Isana was reluctant to say she loved her, and she was even unwilling to lie to her again.

Irene sighed deeply.

She felt uncomfortable, but she also felt that she was affirmed.

Because Isana finally chose to let her come into this world. Isana weighed her own value and her value, and in the end, Isana sacrificed herself for her.

Irene thought that she had seen many gray wolves who had never received affirmation from their parents throughout their lives. There would always be a hidden pain in their hearts that would accompany them for a long time.

She was different. She had long been recognized by her mother. Before she knew the world, her mother had already confirmed her future.

Irene rubbed her eyes. Fatigue overwhelmed her.

She sat up, opened her eyes and looked at her teammates.

Of course she knew that her actions affected their emotions.

"I'm not sad."

Irene spoke up, looking at them seriously.

"She likes daughters who are worthy. If she were still alive and saw my current political achievements, she would like me. Although I am not doing it according to her wishes, I am doing it very well. In time, I will do better than her. She herself admits it."

Irene propped herself up and stood up.

"I've finished reading it, shall we take a break? We still have a lot of things to do tomorrow. I really think it's okay. I know what kind of gray wolf Isana Kerong is, and I admire her, but I don't want to be her.

I will be better than her. I know I can. Whether she loves me or not, she is not here. So it doesn't matter, I have long been accustomed to her absence in love. But she gave me life, which is important, which is the most important.

Because of my weakness, she gave me strength. She gave me enough, she equated love with the surrender of interests, from this perspective, she already loved me incomparably. "

"Eileen..."

Just as Norvia was about to speak, Irene rushed her to bed.

"Go and have a rest! It really doesn't matter. So what if she doesn't love me? I love myself!"

Irene looked at Elliott, who had been silent since she spoke. She spoke softly.

"Of course, it would be even better if I could dream about my mother tonight."