SFS Chapter 163 Fortunately, I got you
Chapter 163 Fortunately, I got you
She had never thought that the sachet that Yun Ji gave her on the night of the fifteenth night last year actually had a predecessor.
And that predecessor not only had a miserable life himself, but also caused harm to Yun Ji.
“Qingchuan’er,” Nan Yingzhi couldn’t help but feel distressed when she heard him describe it so thrillingly but with such a nonchalant expression, “The sachet is something outside of my body, it’s not as important as your hand.
"It's not worth hurting yourself over it."
"That's for you," Yun Ji said with a sincere look in his eyes, his voice light but firm, "It's different."
"No matter how different it is, you shouldn't hurt yourself after being soiled by Yun Ting," Nan Yingzhi held his hand and gave him advice, "Yun Ting is the culprit, go find him.
"He was the one who made the mistake first. If he had any conscience, he would apologize to you.
"Even if he doesn't say anything, at least we have tried and vented our anger.
"If you keep your anger bottled up like this, you'll develop breast nodules, which is bad for your health.
"Next time you encounter this kind of thing, you need to be more flexible. Cursing is not civilized, but you can do it occasionally if you feel like it. First, curse him inwardly to vent your anger, and then pester him to make him compensate you.
"In short, when you encounter injustice, blame the culprit, don't blame yourself, and don't hurt yourself."
It was the first time that Yun Ji heard such remarks as “point the gun at others and protect yourself with the shield” and he was a little surprised.
He closed his eyes and habitually reviewed the mistakes he made that night.
"Yun Ting didn't mean to dirty the sachet. He was drunk that night and wasn't sober to begin with. I shouldn't have put the handkerchief next to the pillow and let him see it."
Listening to him defending Yun Ting, Nan Yingzhi was silent for a while, stroked his hair, and sighed softly: "The fault is Yun Ting, not you, why are you making things difficult for yourself?
"Are you afraid of something?"
Yun Ji was not good at admitting his own weakness, so he instinctively wanted to deny it.
But when the word "no" came to his lips, he suddenly stopped.
In fact, he was really afraid that night.
Firstly, Yun Ting held great power, and he was afraid that if he had a dispute with Yun Ting over a sachet, he would be displeased.
Secondly, he was afraid that things would get out of control, so he was more inclined to blame himself.
It was his incompetence that caused him to fail in protecting the sachet.
Accustomed to licking his wounds in the dark, Yun Ji couldn't help but be shy when revealing his true feelings to Nan Yingzhi: "I, I don't know."
"No wonder Lan Fu used me to threaten you so skillfully just now, as if she had done it many times."
Nan Yingzhi's fingertips slowly covered his cheek, and her voice trembled a little: "Qingchuan'er, how many things have you done to hurt yourself behind my back?"
Unwilling to dissect such an ugly self in front of Nan Yingzhi, Yun Ji avoided his gaze and changed the subject: "Nothing, don't ask."
The two of them were in a stalemate for a moment, and Nan Yingzhi slowly exerted force with her arms to hug him tightly.
"Qingchuan'er," she felt sorry for him, bearing all this alone in a place she couldn't see. She was rarely moved, and her nose felt sore. "Are you trying to make me die of heartache?"
"No, it's not." Seeing that Nan Yingzhi was so concerned about his evasiveness, Yun Ji panicked and spoke at a loss, "Xiao Zhizi, I don't want to make you feel bad."
Slowing down her breathing and suppressing her tears, Nan Yingzhi's voice was still trembling: "Just keep it a secret from me."
"Xiao Zhizi, what you want to ask has already become a thing of the past, gone with the wind, and hard to recall." Yun Ji lowered his eyes and glanced at her belly, and hurriedly changed the subject, "Rather than talking about these, I would rather talk to you about whether the baby in your belly should stay or not."
Emotions come and go quickly. When she heard him bring up the matter of the child, Nan Yingzhi immediately regained her composure: "Go ahead."
Just wanting to tell her the truth and not wanting her to sympathize with his situation, Yun Ji turned his eyes away from her face and continued talking to himself.
"I didn't want to keep him, not only because it was not the right time, but also, to a large extent, because of my past.
"My father, due to certain assertions, only fears me, not loves me.
"Besides, he was seriously ill and didn't allow outsiders to enter the Yangxin Palace. In total, I only saw him a few times.
"My mother blamed me for her fall from favor. When she was normal, she ignored me. When she was crazy, she forced me to recite lessons or play the piano all night long.
"The next morning, when she randomly checked me, if I made a mistake in reciting a word or playing a wrong note, I would be given a basket of sweet cakes.
"It was not until she died suddenly that I was taken into the palace by the current Queen Mother, who was the Queen at that time, that I was able to experience some warmth.
"Unfortunately, the good times didn't last long. Yun Ting was born and became the focus of everyone's attention. Once again, I returned to the dry well where no one loved me."
After a short pause, Yun Ji slowly looked into her eyes, his lips curled up with a smile: "Fortunately, God has eyes, and all these years of misfortune have been exchanged for you.
"Little Gardenia, I am very satisfied."